By K.A. Merikan
Rating: 5 out of 5 stars
You always want what you can’t have. —
David. Catholic. Gay. Set on keeping his purity ring.
Raja. Biker. Manwhore. Never refuses a bet.
David has always tried to be the best son his parents could dream of.
Always at church on Sunday.
Always eager to help with the garden.
Always trying his best at school.
Prim, proper, innocent, and kind.
But deep inside of him, there is a yearning planted by the devil himself, and when a cocky, foul-mouthed biker pulls him a step too far, David doesn’t fall into the abyss. He leaps.
Raja is all he’s ever dreamed of, yet didn’t dare voice. Older, dangerous, a wall of muscle with a grip so strong David can’t resist him no matter how hard he tries.
As a freshly appointed president of a motorcycle club on the verge of ruin, Raja has a lot to live up to. Being gay doesn’t do him any favors in terms of commanding the respect of his men. He has his way of compensating though.
Always first in a fight.
Always bragging about his sexual conquests.
Always up for a bet.
Daring, tattooed, sexy, and unapologetic.
After he boasts he can have any man he wants, he gets challenged to hook up with the preppy guy wallflowering at a party. Raja can’t wait to pop the innocent cutie’s cherry. But when he finds out the guy is his friend’s younger brother, life gets a whole lot messier.
Why is the one guy who should be off-limits always the most tempting?
I’m not sure how I ended up coming across this book, but boy!, am I ever glad that I did. I absolutely loved this book, and I simply fell in love with Raja and David’s story.
This was the first book I have read in the series, but it won’t be the last. The authors are brilliant storytellers and the quality of their writing captured my attention – and held it – from start to finish. Rarely do I just feel so warm and sappy about a couple whether it’s an M/M or M/F, but somehow I was enamored with these two hook, line and sinker and couldn’t step away. Raja and David may not have been an expected coupling, all things considered, and even though I’m not generally drawn to stories with twinks, these two really captured my heart. Even though there were ulterior motives behind the original hook-up and when that secret came out it ended up causing problems, the story focused on the relationship first and foremost. The relationship story even took precedence over club business, which usually plays in fairly heavy in an MC-focused book. The relationship was always the main element, whether it was a building block for forging trust between David and Raja when he was initially coming out, discussing the conversion camps or dealing with David’s family when they condemned him for associating with gays, desecrating the Catholic church when the priest betrayed David to his family and admitting he was gay. The authors do a magnificent job of detailing the barriers both of these men face in their lives, whether it was the memories Raja shared from what his parents had subjected him to or David’s existing battles with his overly religious and homophobic parents and the priest in his home church.
Raja and David simply click, and their chemistry is raw, honest and palpable. These two were made for one another and they belonged together. Their sex scenes were some of the most delicious and seemingly authentic ones I’ve read – and probably it was because these two, well, they just make the perfect couple. Period. Raja and David are real. David is such a cutie, but he’s so vulnerable and young and conflicted. Raja has so many layers, but eventually as they are stripped off, we come to learn that he does want to protect David, to love him. Trust, vulnerability, personal conflict, innocence, acceptance, romance, and love. Most of all, love.
Hunter laughed. “You gotta’ find yourself a prospect. But make sure he’s not too pretty. F*cking a subordinate is still a no-go, right?” He patted Raja’s arm.
Blade nodded. “Pretty true. And I’ve heard guys are super-easy, so the temptation would be there. Get an ugly f*cker.”
David’s emotions were one big tumble of contradictions, but the love he felt for Raja was the one thing he was certain of. If his life were a batch of laundry in a washing machine, then his love was that scarlet red sock that stained every single item in there. He was needy and throbbed for Raja to touch him.
“You did what you had to,” David whispered and gave Raja a soothing kiss. “It must have made it hard for you to…connect to others. You’re not that boy anymore.”
Raja blinked as emotion suddenly hit him head-on. “I know, but he’s still inside me.”
David took a deep breath, watching Raja with his attentive eyes. “Maybe he waited for me after all.”
Raja laughed, choked up, and nervously scratched his scalp. “Maybe. Maybe he did. He really appreciates you.”
“He went to a lot of trouble for me today, and did some hard, honest soul searching.” David gave him another kiss that spoke of acceptance despite everything he had learned about Raja today. “It’s what I needed, and it’s what I think you needed too.”
Raja pulled David closer, squeezing him hard against his own body until his muscles ached and he became worried he’s strangle David. “He likes you more than anyone else.”
“I love you,” David whispered, his warm body pressing against Raja’s chest. “I never stopped. And I don’t know if you can ever say the same to me, but it doesn’t change how I feel. You’re complicated, and I’ll be here to untangle you.”
David smiled at Hunter as he adjusted the tie of his all-black suit. The style of the wedding wasn’t to his taste whatsoever, but it wasn’t his ceremony at the end of the day, so vampire-meets-biker was the theme. He even made a small sacrifice for Hunter’s sake and as the best man, wore an all-black suit as well, even though he thought the color made him look like a zombie…..
Asty was led their way by Tooth, and with all the black lace and tulle, she reminded David of an eighteenth century mourner rather than a bride, but it was her day, so if she wanted to have a Satanic wedding, she could have one. Sadly, it also meant David’s parents wouldn’t be coming, but Asty and Hunter had definitely taught David that life wasn’t about trying to please society…..
After the main part of the ceremony, David put his property vest on over his jacket, and sat around watching everyone, chatting, and eating the deliciously unsophisticated food. Even though he knew in his heart who he belonged with, the vest gave him that extra confirmation of being claimed. Of everyone around knowing he was off-limits, because he was Raja’s. Just thinking about it made him grin.
I simply loved the growth of the romantic relationship and friendship between Raja and David. They are so real.
Review originally posted on Amazon and Goodreads on July 7, 2016.