Watching and Wanting (Housemates Book 4)
By Jay Northcote
Rating: 5 out of 5 stars
Watching Jude’s cam show stirs desires Shawn’s always denied…
Shawn is adrift. Recently graduated, he’s stuck in a dead-end job that barely pays the bills. His girlfriend dumped him, his friends have moved on, and he’s still in Plymouth–going nowhere.
Jude is a student living in the same shared house. Out and proud, he’s everything Shawn’s been running from since he hit puberty. When Shawn discovers Jude works as a cam boy, he can’t resist the urge to watch one of his shows. It makes Shawn want things that scare him, yet his fascination forces him to confront his attraction to Jude.
Keen to explore his bicurious side, Shawn suggests they do a show together. Jude agrees, and things get complicated–and kinky–fast. But Jude isn’t looking to get involved with someone so deep in the closet. If Shawn’s going to get what he wants, he needs to find the courage to stop hiding from himself and be honest about who he is.
Although this book is part of the Housemates series, it has new main characters, a satisfying happy ending, and can be read as a standalone.
I love this series, and I simply can’t get over how each release by author Jay Northcote is better than the one before it! It’s so easy to get drawn right up into the characters and the story, and overcome by emotions as the story unfolds.
Jude and Shawn are magnificent together – they’re that couple that when you finally see them together for the first time, say, “Yep! They belong together! They’re the perfect couple! Why didn’t I think of it?”
Jude is such an authentic, smart, mature, and intuitive guy, and he complements Shawn in a dominant role (that truly was a shocker!). His patience and understanding was laudable, and his blend of tenderness, sensitivity, and respectfulness to Shawn as he starts sorting through his discovery phase was touching. Yet Jude respected himself enough not to allow Shawn’s indecision and fear revert the two of them behind closed doors – he wasn’t willing to be a secret.
Shawn finally being drawn out of the closet and admitting to himself that he was bi was a pleasant surprise, and Northcote does true justice to portraying his inevitable confusion, fear, denial, curiosity, anxiety, mixed emotions, and eventual acceptance and admission to himself, Jude, and their roommates. No doubt my favorite scene was when Shawn drew up the courage to find Jude at the bar. Loved it! The raw emotion was palpable. H*ck, it was smokin’ hot. Together, Jude and Shawn have explosive chemistry, yet their growing attraction and feelings for one another seemed so natural and unrushed – almost as if it always did and always will exist. Their passion was heartfelt and true, even before they realized it. Even “playing” on-camera, their actions were not contrived and only served to stoke the flames, and when things finally became real? H*ll yes! As hot as the sex was, it never seemed like (simply) a physical act – emotions always seemed to take precedence.
This book is extremely well written – always a given with Northcote – and its story is so much: blazing hot, sexy, sweet, anxious, satisfying, tender, and innocent – and its characters are genuinely easy to fall in love with.
Watching and Wanting is a five-star beautiful love story.
I voluntarily read and reviewed an Advanced Reader Copy.
Review originally posted on Amazon and Goodreads on February 5, 2017.